Sometimes it's okay to cry

Remorsing over the things I've said,
I regret the restrictions I've put upon you,
I want to take back the pain I've caused,
I want to make it go back to normal.

Bowing my head in shame, for the way I tried to control you,
I don't let you live, but you deserve to,
Holding you back from everything,
I am sorry I have let you down.

Keeping you close to me,
I try not to let you wander,
I am scared to see what will happen,
Is it okay to be afraid sometimes?

She hurt me, and I don't trust you,
I don't believe a word you say anymore,
I miss the way we used to be,
So close in each other's hearts.

Take advantage of me,
Treat me like I'm ignorant, but I finally found out,
You try to hide things from me,
Lies and decite, is not what a relationship is about.

I want to hold your hand again,
And I want you to kiss me in a way that everything is all right,
I want to know you're still there for me,
I want you to know that I miss you.

Staying awake long into the night,
Trying to find the error in MY ways,
I want to know what drove you to this,
Because I know it's my fault somehow.

I hide from you,
So scared that you'll know how bad it hurts,
I keep my thoughts close to my heart,
Laughing at my emotions on the outside.

This is the last chance I've been given,
And I don't know what to do anymore,
I'm so scared of what is going to happen,
Maybe sometimes, it's okay to cry.