Alone and cold

I remember skinny
Pretty and with friends
Getting good grades
And hanging out on the weekends

Somewhere along the way
I fell off track
Now i sit around wishing
For my old life back

I started partying
Doing drugs and drinking
Having unprotected sex
Without even thinking

I broke all the rules
With no care at all
Without any warning
I started to fall

I drifted from my friends
And started keeping to myself
I'd cut up my wrist
And not worry about my health

Now I'm all alone
In a world of darkness
Even the razor has lost
It's comforting sharpness

I stay in my room
Alone and cold
Praying for the day
I turn 18 years old

I don't talk to anyone
They're all afraid of me
I have become the person
I promised never to be