Debating My Confession

I want to tell you so bad that I love you.
I want you to know that I have given my heart to you.
But I can't tell you.
I love you too much to risk scaring you off and losing you.
I love you more than air itself.
But then I give that a second thought, knowing that I need air to live so I can be with you.
I'm writing a poem about you but it doesn't rhyme.
I can't find anything that rhymes with the way I feel about you.
Because I've never felt anything close to how much love I have for you.
And I don't think I'll ever show you this poem.
I don't want to risk you thinking I'm a freak.
I cry almost everyday because of how hard I fell for you.
I've never been in love with someone like this before.
And the way I feel about you is incredible.
So I'm scared.
I'm scared to know that you don't fell the same about me, or that what I feel doesn't really matter to you.
I hope it does, though.
But I don't want to say that and get my hopes up to think that you would feel the same way.
But I do want to say that because it's the truth.
I want you to feel the same.
My love for you is so overwhelming that I don't know what to think.
My mind is all jumbled up when I'm around you.
That's why I don't talk.
My mind is too far out there for any words to come out.
That's why all these sentences keep changing topics.
I can't help it.
But I really do love you and want to be with you for a long time.
that's about all I can think about.
How I never want to lose you.
How I would give my life for you to love me the way I love you for at least one day.
But I have to keep that inside for now.
Or at least until my heart tells me that it's okay to admit my love for someone as special as you.

Inspired by: my ex, R.T.