Why did this happen to me?

Why did this happen to me?
Why did my life turn out like this?
You only live to hurt me,
Now the tables turn on you.

I cant make you see,
How this tainted love of hate-
Is doing to me.

I can't seem to do anything right,
I just wallow in self-pitty,
My life is now in endless hatred,
And the marks won't seem to heal.

I hide myself behind locked doors-
to escape from all the fights,
Maybe..just maybe,
I might change the way i feel.

How can I make you see my pain is oh so real.
The lashes on my arms,
Crying for you to look,
But you just sit there-
Ignore these words from my mouth.

Why did this happen to me?
How did my life turn out like this?
If only I could turn back the clock,
And mand a hand-
Instead of a fist.