Blame

by Lecrissa   Dec 12, 2006


I had big hopes,
I had such big dreams.
But the drugs
Took all that
Away from me.

Its all my fault.
I have no one
But myself to blame.
The drugs became
All that was important,
All that I use to be.

I have woken up.
I now walk in the light.
Ten years clean and sober.
But every day its a good fight.

I see the young,
that used to be me.
Partying and drinking,
All their stupidity!

I use to be there,
Thinking it was so much fun.
Till I got hurt,
Because of something real dumb.

I didn't see it.
Didn't realize what I had done.
I had pushed
All my good friends away.
And traded them
For drugged out ones.

I met a very kind man.
who was lonely,
And reached out to me.
He treated me like a daughter,
And helped me get clean.

I owe him a debt,
That I won't ever be able to repay.
Except to remember him,
And to help others
As he had helped me.

I am not here to preach.
I just need to share the wisdom.
I thank the lord I have no regrets.
I have not managed to kill anyone.

So sit and ponder,
before you take
The next toke or pill.
Before you have that last drink
And get behind the wheel.

Who's hopes,
Who's dreams,
Are you likely to steal.

I don't usually write so long a poems but the words just kept coming. This ones about my life looking back.

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  • 16 years ago

    by crystaljean88

    I liked this poem very much. i can relate to this in many ways.. it was perfect!

  • 16 years ago

    by TwiztidJuggalette

    I really liked that poem. It was written with such deep emotions and the ending I just loved. It was short but straight to the point. Congratulations to 10 years sober. Very nice write.

    5/5

  • 17 years ago

    by goddess-glamourpuss

    I like the message you are putting across in this and it is clearly written from the heart. It started out very strong and although the flow and rhythm remained steady for me it seemed to lose something towards the middle - maybe it could be split into two poems?
    Otherwise it is an honest and open piece that deserves credit for the subject.

  • 17 years ago

    by dollwithafrown

    I just checked my inbox there and noticed the email which you sent on the 13th. Sorry for my late reply.

    Second stanza:

    "Its all my fault.
    I have no one
    But myself to blame.
    The drugs became
    All that was important,
    All that I use to be."

    The first line should read, "It's all my fault." and the last line should read, "All that I used to be."

    "But every day its a good fight."

    The 'its' should be "it's" - note the apostrophe.

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    Hope this helps you out a bit.

  • 17 years ago

    by Rachel RTVW

    Poetry is a good outlet for emotions past and present, keep writing.

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