Screaming Inside

I cant trust myself anymore,
it hurts n the cuts are so soar.
I wanna scream, just scream the way i feel,
even if i do - the scars will never heal.
You smiled, you laughed - I cut, i cried,
You lied, I tried, how can i get out what i feel inside?
You go beneath me - Found the core,
You tore the cuts further, deeper, wider more.
You cant just leave me here,
When i have become my own fear.
I\\\'m frozen inside without your love, without your touch,
why does this hurt oh so much?
Now I\\\'m living a lie,
But i just don\\\'t know why.
I was so lost in your love - i didn\\\'t see what was about to come,
I\\\'m over your lies, wanna get away cant you see what Ive become?
Me and you - There never will be, never can be,
You changed me - now no one even knows me.
I cried, and you wiped away those tears,
but in me you have created deeper fears.
The hurt feels so real,
The pain is just surreal.
The hurt time cannot erase,
I think of you as just another phase.
But i don\\\'t wanna see you pull me down,
You left, Ur choice that you ain\\\'t around.
But all i can say is at least i tried,
I still go on hurting, bleeding screaming inside.