Living A Lie

Everything was going so f u c k i n g well
But now things are falling apart
Am I really headed back to that place?
The one with a broken heart?

I was feeling so damn strong
But now everything is wrong
I don't know what to do
I'm back to feeling blue.

I don't know where I'm headed
I feel so sad
Why do things always f u c k up
And I end up feeling bad?

School, friends, a job-
I got them all back
But now I'm losing them all
Everything I want I lack.

I haven't cried for so long
But now that's all I want to do
Each night I will weep
While I wonder what to do.

Each day I'll put on a fake smile
I haven't had to do that for so long
Who was I kidding?
I could never remain strong.

So now I'll go through each day
I'll just live a lie
Outside I'll always smile
While everything inside will cry.