Damaged from deceit..
Coldness or maybe just numb from your tirade of abuse
Please leave me alone..
I want to leave but I haven't the strength..
I feel incomplete
Defective....missing parts that I need to conform to regularity..
I cross the road in a daze
I hope that the car wont swerve
I want to be one again
Please leave me alone..
Standing on the edge of my world...they said the view was worth the wait....
I wonder what the scenery is like vertically and at speed?
I'm curious to taste the other side....
No refunds on damaged goods....
I sit staring at this screen...
In my pauses I push pins in to my arm...
I have no reason to be here...this is a mess..perhaps you were the message I needed to face my judgment..
My face is covered in pixelation..
I feel distorted..like I'm looking at life through the bottom of an old Pepsi bottle...
I often wonder how many people would attend my funeral and if you would cry
Would the right song would be played for my final request.
My hands are cold tonight
As I pour my every thought in to my intentions.
I take a deep breathe...
Frustrated, with no companion...
I dont want to let you down...
My grip is growing weak...
I feel my self slipping off a flat surface...as if I'm sliding on ice..
I see your face...you see another's....
I grab desperately for your jacket sleeve as I tumble deeper in to my personal self controlled prison..
You move your arm back as if I'm dirty...
I promise I wont leave a stain...
You look at me with shame and disgust as you see the marks on my arm..
I cant explain it away...and I cant look you in the eye..
I feel you kicking me when I'm already down for the count..
I hold my hand out for you to help me back on my feet..
You turn your back on me and walk away..
