Love hate relationship

Its coing to and end
i can't play pretend
i'm not acting real
i wanna tell you how i feel
the truth is
sometimes i can't look in the mirror
cuz i hate the person looking back at me
sometimes i want to die so my heart can be set free
there are time when i want to laugh
times when i wanna cry
but then i stop to ask my self the question why
why do i love you
why do i love your eyes
why do i need you
why do i believe you lies
because im stupid
stupid fpr listening when you were wrong
looking back at us now i know why we never got along
you put me in second place
i hate you so much
and i hate seeing your face
you make me sick
your hormones turned you into a prick
but yet i love you
and you said you loved me
but the truth is you loved her too
you chewed me up and spit me out
you used me up and threw me out
all in the end
i gave you another chance
to prove your self "right"
but all its gonna turn out to be is another fight
but im breaking the cycle
i can't take it anymore
so get lost
cuz im already a step out the door