I feel pitty

Wish i could feel pretty!!
i wish i didn't have to fake a smile!
i wish for myself i didn't feel a pity!
i wish for alot of things,
but something i truly wish for is for someone to love me,someone to hold me,someone i can tell my feelings to without them telling me I'm stupid!!
Sometimes i wish death upon myself,.
if its an option?
I dint know and nobody cares!!
who would think about me?
I'm worthless.
why am i here?
But honestly i think death is an option...
AND Definitely NOT A FEAR!!!