Where hed be safe

On 9/11 when the towers began to fall.
The phone rang and i got a frightening call.
My dad was calling tellin me he loved everyone exspecially me.
But i didnt understnad why god had to take him and not someone else it made me very unhappy

I cried for weeks just starin at his picture the man i thought would always be by my side.
I kept a strong look on me and coped with things all i could i really tried.
but the more i pray the more the pain.
I hated god he was the one i blamed.

But it wasnt his fault, it was the planes.
And all i wanted to do was kill them bastards for makein everything change.
i remember passin a baseball with my dad in the front yard everynight.
hed make me pass back and forth until i got it completely right.

And every christmas hed run into my room pick me up and carry me down stairs.
this is the 5 christmas without him it really isnt fair.
i remember going to church and watchin all the little kids with there dads.
and i could barely stand the tears just wanted to come out i was so sad.

And i remember sittin and watchin nijja turtles with him.
and the more i thought bout the times he made me laugh so hard it hurt more with in.
and the first time he taught me how to ride a bike.
i fell cut my knee but he encouraged me to get right back up and do it right.

the memories keep comin and the pain hurts me more.
and all i remember is him being there and tellin me he would always be there for sure.
but the moment he hung up he was gone forever.
and that was last time id ever he his voice ever.

and it got harder to swallow and my throat got sore.
and i never got this feelin before.
and everything flashed before me. the memories everything was changin as it seemed.
and i wished my dad was tryin to wake me up from this nightmare this scary dream.

and my hands began to shake and tears poured out my eyes.
and i couldnt help but say god dont let my father die.
but there was nothin he could do except for takin him to a betta place.
a place in heaven where he.d be safe.

JayJay
this was the scarist dream i have ever had. but comment and rate thanks.