Endless struggle

You once made me feel so contempt
how could it be that you became what i resent
i feel like my fire has burned out
all certainity has turned to doubt.

my hope slowly dies
my hart it moans and cries
this world is killing me
passive misanthropy

this painfull moment seem to last an eternity
getting more distant from serenity
drowining in the bitter river of melancholy
knowing that my dream couldn't be

i see no future
under a split open sky
bitterness enables me
to no longer cry

i already created a river of bitter tears
hoping it would wash away impurity and all my fears
that didn't happen, that would be the easy way out
i'm bound to be forsaken in the maze of doubt

there is something wrong with me
i close my eyes yet I still see
that i'm trapped in the moment my heart broke
and I wonder what can set me free

i wish you where here
for i love your presence near
but you are so far
shining like a distant star

but the stars won't shine down on me today
i just wish that i didn't feel this way
hating that this happened in the past
luckily memories don't last

i wish i didn't feel this pain within my soul
all i wanted was to feel whole
and feel like i belong
but i'm weak, by far not that strong

the dusk of a brand new day, a fresh start
but in reality it's another day for you to break my heart
my heart breaks down and I soon will give in
despondent surrender, why fight what I cannot win?

-Roy