Menthol 100\'s

Sitting by my computer,
staring at my box of menthol 100\'s;
feelin like my souls trapped in a dungeon;
wasteing my time,
turning words into phrases,
that no one will understand,
till they see between the lines on the pages,
my heads so fcked up,
and I'm feelin real ill,
if it makes the burden lighter,
I'll take another pill,
somewhat lacking in love,
but never in habits.
I'll kick back and relax,
if just for tonight,
still searchin for my matches,
cause I need another light,
something to burn out,
or maybe to be the light of my life,
but for tonight,
i swear ill be alright,
but honestly its lookin the other direction ,
I'm not so sure about tomorrow,
so I'm enjoyting today.
wondering if I should give it up or stay and question,
living off of lattes,
empowered by caffine,
dreamin of forever,
but never to amount to anything,
depressed by what I've seen,
cause nothin you feel is ever real,
dissappoint by everything I've been,
accepting life but hopein for another deal,
you never know what's in store,
but seeing is believein till I can trust people more,
is there some baidaid to fix what's gone haywire?,
cause lifes hectic and stressed and the situations getting dire,
hopes barely left,
and I'm about to douse it's fire,
I'm numb to the slightest trace of the heat,
just enough to keep you there,
drowing in the warmth of your own despair,
but please don't give up on me,
even though all that's worth keeping,
is everything you can't see,
I'd promise you anything I have and more,
anything I could do,
just so you won't close the door,
the slightest of doors slamming,
will bring my house down to disaster,
that's why I'm pleading with you,
and talking so much faster,
don\'t leave me alone,
to devices of my own,
I don't know what I'll do,
if I never hear from you.
rebuilding is more then I could take,
I can't handle another naive heart break,
I'll just leave it in pieces,
and move on again,
never stopping to fix or comprehend how it started,
just making a brand new end