If Olny I were.

If only I were the life that I once had.
Many times ago when I was alone.

If only I were just the one didn't do bad.
Maybe I was left along time ago.

If only I were the one to run away.
To hide the shame that I had to keep out.

If only I were the one that could stay.
Then when I do, I would shout it all out.

If only I were that could live a life.
Where I could live alone in the dark.

If only I were the one that didn't end it with the knife.
And try to make it better with just one spark.

If only I were the one to die.
To remember the past that I once knew.

If only I were the one to try.
And yet I'm the only one that ever had few.

If only I were the one to run away
And make all my hate just go away.

If only I were.