I die, I cry, I lie

I die when I see you together,
I cry myself to sleep,
I lie and say I'm over you,
it's true, I'm in too deep.

I know I should be over this,
I really wish I was,
I don't know if I ever will be,
and I'm starting to lose my buzz.

I die on the inside,
cry on the outside,
lie to stay alive,
my heart will soon divide.

too scared to move ahead,
afraid to look behind,
it seems I'll always be stuck here,
I didn't think you'd mind.