Pain with out the pain

I cry but only one hears me,i hurt myself only one nows.people poed me off is Wat causes me to do it the pain gets worse but i still live. i cant take it anymore my parents r aces. i have no real dad they should take my life as they did his,but i have only one person to live 4 my boyfriend without him I\\\'d be gone no one would have cared they wouldn\\\'t even have noticed that i was gone before i was just a slave now I\\\'m only real on-line an with my boyfriend but i cant hold on any longer I\\\'m going to explode if i don\\\'t overcome this evil the evil inside me as i have no love i want to now how it feels to be loved again i need love or i wont make it my life line get shorter every second because no one shows me the love i need or shows me anything