Unable to remember the past clearly
I now get memories that cant be real
I try to believe this truly and sincerely
But the memories are coming true
The awful pain that this is putting me through
I try to forget and ignore the memories
Of things that have not yet come
But when ever I lose the old memories
The new ones come blurry but I can make out some
So guilty I feel when I do nothing
But I fear being crazy for doing something
Time and time again they come true
They used to be so mundane
Just little things that had no relevance
Now they slowly drive me insane
I see pain and tears
And at my heart it tares
I have known things I should never have known
And I have forgotten things I should never have forgotten
I feel as if my mind is breaking
I know this cant be real
So I lie and say what I do not feel
