I hold my breath
Because it hurts when I breathe
I close my eyes tight
Because it hurts to see.
I keep my arms crossed
Because it hurts to feel
I stay asleep and dream
So I don't feel what's real.
I know when times get hard
That's when our faith should be strong.
And if we just pray and put our faith in God
We'll never be able to go wrong.
But I just don't understand it
If God is supposedly on our side
Why does He take the ones we love
And expect on Him, for us to rely?
They say when it's someone's time to go
God needs them more than we do.
But why should my heart have to bleed
For God's plan to follow through?
Why are there so many people living
Who's goals in life are to kill?
Why does God keep around
The ones who lie and steal?
Why is a mother of two
Who is good to all she knows
The one who had to be taken away
Why were you the one He chose?
Why did you have to be the one
Who got stricken with disease?
And why did you have to be the one
He decided that He needs?
And then I start to think
And I start to become selfish
Why did it have to be my mom
That God called up to heaven?
I know if you had a choice,
You'd never want to come back here
You're in a place with only happiness
No pain, no hurt...no fear.
But I'm still here on earth.
Waiting for my time to go home
But seeing as I'm only 20,
I think I have some time to go.
It's so confusing here for me
It's hard t let go of the past
But I have to move on with my life
Because life goes by too fast.
Since you've left I've learned a lot
Like life won't wait for me.
Time doesn't stop or slow down
For me to be ready.
Life is good right now
It'd be better if you were in it
But life is about give and take
And we take what we can get.
But while you're up there praising God
Can you ask God these quesions for me
I'd really like to know the answers
And have a sense of pease.
