Loved or hated?

Am I loved?
Or am I hated?
I just don't understand.

It's just that I
Feel so lonely
Yet there's people to lend a helping hand.

To my face people are caring
But when I'm not around
They treat me like dirt.

They talk to me
but then leave me out
I guess no one cares if I get hurt.

Am I loved?
Or am I hated?
I just don't understand.