Falling in love

*this isnt exactly a poem but i just started writing and this is what came out so ya...*

What is love? A time old question. Do we even have the slightest idea? Some describe it as mysterious, wonderful, and pretty much everything they need. They say it makes them feel like their lifting up, walking on air as if it is the most wonderful thing on the world. Sure its fun, it feels good and you dont want anything more. I have been there and I know how it feels. But the day you come spiraling down to earth and finally hit reality, you pretty much hit rock bottom. Been there too. When you look around for comfort, they wont be there; they left you, selfishly and without the slightest thought going your way. They dont care how much they hurt you, or how alone you feel. They are fending for themselves and their own heart and dont ever look back at who they may have shattered on their way. You are now officially just another bump in the road.

Is that really worth the while? Is it worth all the tears, the sleepless nights, and the pain? I believe so, why else to people go back again and again? It is a great thing, but never fall too deep, because the day you do is the day you pretty much loose everything. There are lucky people, the ones who find the real thing and arent just toyed with as a temporary thrill. Entertainment till the next best thing comes along. There are marriages that work and people that have been in love since before they met. But lets just be honest, there arent many. Now its divorce after divorce and break up after break up. And when you finally find the real thing you may not even know it because youre just too scared to find out. They tell you get used to the pain and that youll get over it, thats a lie. They also say you can only be dropped so many times till it finally stops hurting, another lie. It will never stop hurting and it will only get worse.

If you right now are in love, think of how you feel. Like youre on top of the world and the other person is your better half and your entire universe. Pleasant thought im sure. Ok now stop and bring yourself back down to reality. Think about what you are going to do when your entire world collapses, and everything comes crashing down and youre left on your own fragile and scared. Bluntly, thats most probably how its going to end. And if you think you know better, that im wrong, thats your problem but do yourself this favor. Think back to past relationships, when you gave them your all and put your heart on the line and all they did was turn on you and walk away. Remember how scared you where then, and how you never thought it would end. Bottom line it always ends that way for nothing lasts forever.

I may sound ludacris but dont get me wrong. I have been in love, twice to be exact, all it got me was a shattered heart and a knife stabbed into my back. I know the motto goes that when you get knocked down you should get up again, but eventually i think your just plain stupid to get up again, to put yourself through that another time. I mean how many tears can you cry, well I can guarantee you they never stop. Lifes a cruel game and like with every game there are masters. Puppeteers if you will, who will manipulate you to get what they want, and learn the tecniques to control you and then in the end abandon you.

Trust is a virtue, a sign of honour if you like. But keep in mind. Trust can bring you down so fast. Dont trust everyone, the day you let your guard down, prepare to feel the sharp blade of a knife in your back. There are cold people in this world and if you are one of them, congradulations, you have reached an all time low, but in doing so you have dominated those weak with compassion.

Pretty much all I am saying is that life is no bed of roses, it is probably more like the thorns, and you are going to sting and burn many times. but youll get over it, atleast you hope so. So goodbye, good luck and most of all.. Welcome to reality... its a bi$*h!!!

*dedicated to KRM*