Closing the Door

I'm closing myself up
locking it deep inside
going somewhere safe
so I can hide.

I'm locking it so deep
no one can see
the pain I've hidden
inside of me.

I won't reveal it
I won't let it out
not even a little bit
though I hate how I cannot shout.

I want to show it
I want to cry
it pains me so
to get through the night.

I'm closing the door
and building my walls high
let the tears pour
as I ask myself why.

I'll push them away
like I always do
they don't need to carry my weight.

My walls will not crumble
my bricks will not fall
I'll not falter
I'm going to stand tall.

Just this once I have to be strong
I can't falter again
I can't be wrong.
I have to withstand the pain.