A stand against pain

SO MUCH TIME GONE BY,
SO MANY MEMORIES TO MAKE ME CRY.

AS I SIT HERE AND RECALL THE TIME WE SAID I DO,
I WONDER NOW WHAT IS IT THAT I SAW IN YOU.

THESE THOUGHTS HOW THEY HURT ME,
FOR THIS IS NOT WHERE I WANT US TO BE.

THE PAINFUL WORDS THAT ARE SAID,
LEAVE ME CRYING ALONE AT NIGHT IN BED.

TEARS THAT I SHALL NEVER LET HIM SEE,
FOR I KNOW THERE WILL BE A WAY HE WILL MOCK ME.

THE MEMORIES OF JOY I WISH TO HOLD ON TIGHT,
BUT THE PAINFUL TEARS THAT FLOW AND KEEP ME UP THROUGH THE NIGHT,

CARRY SO MUCH MORE WEIGHT THEN I CARE TO BARE,
FOR THIS PAIN, WITH HIM, I CAN NEVER SHARE.

I TRY TO EXPRESS THE FEELINGS WITHIN,
BUT FROM MY POINT OF VIEW, THEY ARE UNIMPORTANT TO HIM.

SO MUCH ANGER, I SEE IN HIS EYES
THIS ANGER HE HAS IS BREAKING OUR TIES.
DIFFICULT HE IS, TO TALK TO , HE HIDES BEHIND HIS OWN LIES.

WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO? FOR HIM TO SEE THE LOVE,
THE LOVE I HAVE HELD FOR HIM WITH THE POWER FROM UP ABOVE.

WHY DOES HE PUSH ME SO VERY FAR AWAY,
IT SHOULD BE NO WONDER WHY I FEEL I CANNOT STAY.

THE WORDS HE USES THAT HURTS ME SO,
I FEEL AS IF HE IS PUSHING ME TO GO.

IF HIS LOVE FOR ME IS TRUE AS HE CLAIMS,
THEN WHY THE RIDICULE, WHY THE NAMES?

I KNOW WHO I AM AND WHERE I WANT TO BE,
BUT HE IS PUSHING ME SO FAR.....CAN'T HE SEE.

CAN HE NOT SEE THE THINGS THAT HE HAS DONE
THAT TEARS AT MY HEART, AND RESTRICTS US FROM BEING ONE.

THOUGH PAIN IT IS THAT I FEEL SO STRONG,
TO SAY THAT I HATE HIM WOULD BE SO WRONG.

THE FEELING OF HATE, I DO NEVER FEEL,
BUT GOD TO I PRAY FOR A PEACEFUL MOMENT TO STEAL.

I KNOW DEEP IN HIS HEART, HE MEANS ME NO SORROW,
HOWEVER, I SIT HERE ALONE WONDERING HOW HE WILL HURT ME TOMORROW.

NO HE DOES NOT PLAN IT, I DO BELIEVE HE IS UNAWARE,
BUT FOR LOVE, HE SHOULD MAKE AN EFFORT , TO SHOW HE CAN CARE.

THE YEARS HAVE GONE BY, THE MEMORIES ARE OF PLENTY,
BUT IN THIS LOVE I FEEL SO EMPTY.

STANDING BY HIS SIDE IN ALL THAT HE'S DONE,
TRYING IN SO MANY WAYS TO MAKE US ONE.

MY EFFORTS NOT NOTICED, FOR HE DOES NOT BELIEVE
THAT ONE CAN LOVE HIM UNCONDITIONALLY,
THIS HE DOES NOT PERCEIVE.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED OR WHERE WE WENT WRONG,
THIS PAIN HOWEVER, I CANNOT DENY, IS TOO STRONG.

SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED THAT TIME CANNOT ERASE,
HOW I WISH I CAN GET US OUT OF THIS PLACE.

THIS PLACE OF SADNESS, HEARTACHE AND SORROW,
TO BEGIN AGAIN STARTING TOMORROW.

BUT I LOOK BACK AND SEE HOW MUCH I HAVE DONE
TO FIX THIS LIFE WE HAD BEGUN.

COUNTLESS SACRIFICES I HAVE PLACED BEFORE HIM,
PUTTING HIS NEEDS FIRST, GOING OUT ON A LIMB.

THIS I CAN NO LONGER DO, I HAVE TO THINK OF ME,
AND THINK OF ME SO SELFLESSLY.

THIS PART I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN DO,
FOR ALL THESE YEARS I HAVE DONE ONLY FOR YOU.

A PART OF ME THAT WILL FOREVER STAND
DOING FOR YOU AND OTHERS GOES HAND IN HAND.

HOW CAN I LEARN TO DO FOR ME?
IT WILL TAKE TIME, I WILL DO IT,
WAIT AND SEE.

I NEED TO LET GO OF YOU ,MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE,
I CAN NOT STAY ANOTHER DAY BEING YOUR WIFE.

YOU DON'T REALLY LOVE ME FOR IF YOU DO,
YOU HIDE IT SO DEEP INSIDE, IN THE DEPTHS OF YOU.

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS AT TIMES,
YOUR ACTIONS SWEETIE HAVE BROKEN OUR TIES.

SO TORN IS MY HEART FOR MY LOVE FOR YOU WAS REAL,
BUT LOVE FOR YOU NOW IS NOT WHAT I FEEL.

I KNOW YOU ARE GOOD SOMEWHERE DEEP INSIDE,
YOU HAVE LOVE AND KINDNESS, WHY THESE DO YOU HIDE?

AS IF I HAVE RUINED YOUR LIFE IN SOME WAY,
YET OVER AND OVER I ASK YOU TO SAY.

YOU CLAIM I HAVE DONE NOTHING TO YOU WRONG,
THEN WHY IS YOUR DISTANCE FROM ME SO STRONG?

TO MUCH SORROW TO MANY TEARS,
TO NOW WASH AWAY AFTER ALL THESE YEARS.

I CANNOT SEEM TO LET GO OF ALL THAT I FEEL,
IS IT FAIR TO YOU, NOW THAT MY LOVE IS NOT REAL?

HOW CAN YOU LIVE WITH ONE WHO'S LOVE IS NOT TRUE,
I KNOW DEEP INSIDE YOU MUST BE FEELING BLUE.

BUT MY DEAR I CANNOT LOVE YOU AS YOU DO DESERVE,
I CANNOT PRETEND I CANNOT RESERVE.

I WILL NOT GROW INTO LOVING YOU NOW,
TOO MUCH PAIN HAS BROUGHT ME DOWN.

PLEASE LET US GO, MOVE ON TO A BETTER LIFE,
FOR I CAN NO LONGER BE FAIR, I CAN NO LONGER BE YOUR WIFE.

I WISH YOU ONLY THE BEST IN YOUR DAYS,
I DO CARE FOR YOU IN SO MANY WAYS.

I ONLY PRAY THAT WE CAN REMAIN KIND,
FOR THE CHILDREN WILL SUFFER, IT WILL TARE UP THEIR MIND.

PLEASE LET GO, AND SET ME FREE,
FOR YOU AND I CAN NEVER TRULY BE.