The blood paints the canvas of my life's hopes and dream
My lonely walk year after year
The light shines on my dark mind
As I hide in shame
The cold breeze wake me from my gently sleep
I wake in a panic year after year
I try to remember you there in my dreams
But the truth shakes me
And in-rages me
As I try to live
Night comes and I feel free there
I hide from all to see
My pain, it shows
And the shame grows
I do not want anyone to know
The truth of my broke soul
I live two lifes
One is where you have not died
And the other one where you still here
As I gently touch your hair
As I watch you drift to sleep
I kiss you as you fall a sleep
By whole soul and mind where never more alive
But now you're gone and they are long gone
And my dreams are to be with you in the next life
Where I will never let you leave my side
My love till then
