Bittersweet

It's been a heavy rain
Nearly a tropical storm
Something's not the same
Something seems wrong

The day started out fine
Light splotches of grey
Lingering within the silver line
The sun kept them at bay

It was when my thoughts shifted
Like the breaking of dawn
When my spirits suddenly lifted
And my troubles just gone

You were in my head
A beautiful affliction
A torture self-made
Of undeniable affection

Gladly I recall our dying days
When you'd deprive me so
Your never-ending, selfish ways
A familiar pain I'll always know

Yet I stuck by you like a mule
Though others simply called me a fool
"Why waste time when it's so obvious?
She treats you in ways that are so malicious?"

Somehow I never wanted to believe
Their words like the devil's kin that sieved
Through a funnel that sought to turn me from
The facade and lies that kept me warm

And then reality slapped me in the face
Like a chivalrous knight shun in disgrace
A bitter-sadness waned me thin
When I saw you making out with him

At that moment I didn't know laughter or tears
Those who'd kept telling me all these years
The aftermath was like a state of remorse
To the point of nailing myself on the cross

It's been decades but like a light-hearten load
I haven't thought much let alone gloat
Until this morning when I reminiscent pure-disdain
Part of me longs to surrender towards your pain