I hate you, thats a lie. deep within me, hiding inside.

by XTaintedxBeautyX   Dec 18, 2006


I remember everything,
everything you've put me through.
But still after this all,
I wonder why I still love you.

I hate you times a million,
I will keep telling myself these things.
Until I finally believe it,
Let's see what the future brings.

But why do these feeling come back,
I've told them to leave me for good.
I never wanted them there in the first place,
So I hidden them as much as I could.

You don't have a clue,
As to everything you've put me through.
You could care less But still,
I wish you had knew.

I'm closed in this thing,
Thinking I'm safe from getting hurt.
But the truth is every things gotten worse,
I wish everything would just revert.

Acting like nothing has ever happened,
Will not do anything Remotely close.
To bringing peace with everything,
Before these horrid thought grow.

I will fight for what I believe is true,
And yes that means I'm going to fight or you.
I've told myself all of these lies,
Just to find out I truly love you. Who would have knew?

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have you ever had something on your mind so much, and it won't go away and it makes you upset but you just can't seem to get it off your mind?well a lot of things like that have been on my mind. Everything that has ever went terribly wrong in my lifetime has been on my mind. thats stuff from deaths to my father leaving to guys I've actually loved and lost. I hate it and I've been doing so much to try and get it off my mind but I can't and it has bringing me down too much and now people are beginning to notice how I'm feelings which is really bad because I can usually hide my feelings until they get to this extent

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  • 17 years ago

    by Freddie

    I luv it! well done! keep writing ur realli gud!

  • 17 years ago

    by kida

    Pk 1st of all the poem is good im sure everyone can understand what that feels like. as for not being able to get things off your mind my advice is sport through it, write down what is troubling you it dosen't have to be a poem, it dosen't even have to make sense it should be for you and only you. read throlugh your list and think why these things are on your mind? people who have passed away might be coming to mind bcoz there is somthing unresolved that you want to sort out concerning them if thats true then talk to them, you may not see them but they are listeneing. as for your father leaving i dont really know i have never known what thats like but i can tell you now dont ever blae yourself whatever reason he left was his own and not bcoz of you, if possible why not give him a call, if he is out of your life alltogether and f his own choice (picked up and left oyu without telling you a thing about where he was going) then 4get it he sounds weak. now as for guys dont worry bout em' if you're outside havcing fun with m8s guy issues tend to resolve themselves.

  • 17 years ago

    by A New Beginning

    Great job. I know the feeling.
    Keep it up.