My name is Amanda. born and raised in the United states. I'm not just the typical girl who cries when she gets hurt, smiles when she feels loved, hides when she is afraid and laughs when she is happy. I'm the type of girl who cries every night praying to god that i wont ever get hurt like this. wishing that no one will ever hurt me like this. smiles because my family and friends are in good health .. and knowing that they are always gonna be there for me. hides when I'm afraid to face the fact. runs away because there is no other way for me to solve my problem. laughs when I'm happy because everything in my life is good in this very moment. but the thing is that. thats rarely. I'm the type of girl who hugs her teddy bear wishing that this pain would go away and never come back. I'm the type of girl who wishes that she can rewind back time so that she can fix her mistakes .. but also knowing that you learn from your mistakes. I'm the type of girl who gets close to the opposite sexs too fast knowing that i will always end up getting hurt in the end. the type of girl who trusts only the closest friends. the type of girl who "bottles" things up instead of talking about it. because talking about it will hurt her even more. so what does she do you ask ? she writes it all down. blogs it. puts it in a journal. writes it in her phone. the type of girl who blames herself for everything that went wrong. and last I'm the type of girl who just wants someone to love her and not hurt her. someone who will care for her. someone who she could trust and give her heart too but promises her that he wont ever break it. so in all my life is all based upon quotes. quotes that explain [love,family,friendships ..etc.] i live for the moment also knowing that the moment wont last that long so live it like its your last
