Mistakes

Mistakes I make never go away
In my mind they are here to stay
Creating my guilt that feeds my hate
For myself resenting being born in this state
With a mind that bent on suicide
Creating new thoughts through all of time

The mistakes build up and over lap
Anything good that may have helped me pass
And go on well off into the world
Instead of being caught with my mind in thoughts of gore
This way of life to me has become a bore
To many made tearing apart myself from the very core

Mistakes weigh me down
Causing me feet to drag on the ground
Not being able to take the next step
Over the hill wanting to feel
The light on the other side
One escape one truth not able to run or hide

Mistakes so small yet build up and look so tall
So high above that I am afraid if I try to climb them
It will fall
So stay down and hold on to them all
Desperate to keep them together
Not wanting to have to tumble then crawl

Mistakes to many made on peoples souls