Dear, Dear Diary

I'm going to tell you a story
About a confused little girl
About how she was broken inside
And kept her pain hidden from the world.
Here you'll find extracts from her diary
About how she went away
You'll find a letter from her mother
Written on that sad day.
So without further ado
Let me tell you about that girl's pain
The pain that was invisible for so long
And is now driving her mother insane.

1st December
Dear, Dear Diary
I've been a bad, bad girl
I lied to myself and thought
That I really COULD take on the world.

2nd December
Dear, Dear Diary
I'm doing everything wrong
I'm such a stupid idiot
To think that I could be strong.

3rd December
Dear, Dear Diary
I don't know who I am
Sometimes I think if I went away
No one would really give a damn.

4th December.
Dear, Dear Diary
I don't know how much more I can take
Maybe if I ended things now
It would be better for everyone's sake.

5th December
Dear, Dear Diary
All I do it seems is cry
When was I last happy?
Why do I wish to die?

6th December
Dear, Dear Diary
I don't know what to do
No one sees my hidden pain
No one knows that I am blue.

7th December
Dear, Dear Diary
I have to get away from this place
I can't stay here any longer
To die young, IS my fate.

8th December
Dear, Dear Diary
Everything is ready to go
It's amazing how happy I feel
Now I don't have to stay here anymore.

9th December
Dear, Dear Diary
This will be my very last day
I love you but goodbye
It's time for me to go away.

Later on that night
When she didn't come down for tea
Her mother went to fetch her
Calling her name and shouting 'Anwser me!'

Her mother entered the bedroom
And she froze still in shock
Slowly from side to side
Her body began to rock.

There right in front of her
Her little girl lay on her bed
Empty pill bottles around her
Her diary near her head.

Her mother rushed over to her
She was screaming her name
She checked for a pulse but the body was cold
She collapsed to the floor hysterical with pain.

Her mother slowly moved to the diary
And began reading each page
She sobbed even harder
Her whole body filled with rage.

Her baby had been in pain
And she hadn't had a clue
The girl had said it herself:
No one knows I am blue.

Now weeks have passed
Since that girl's death
Her mother will mourn for her
Till her own dying breath.

Her little girl's room
Looks exactly the same
But if you go in there
You'll find a letter filled with pain.

It rests on her pillow case
Where her diary was found
No one can touch or read it
This place is out of bounds.

But there's a girl up in Heaven
Who knows what that letter does say
She knows it word for word
She reads it every day.

Dear My Beautiful Girl,

I wish you had come to me
To talk about your pain
With you gone so suddenly
Nothing will ever be the same.

I wish I'd had some clue
To how you really felt
I don't know if I can take
The pain that I've been dealt.

I really didn\'t know you were in pain
Why didn't I see?
I failed in my duty to protect you
Will you ever forgive me?

I miss you so much that it hurts
I can't sleep at night
My beautiful, baby girl
How long were things not right?

I love you so, so much
Did you ever know that?
One day we'll be reunited
And I'll have won you back.

RIP, my Angel.
Love always, Mummy.

**not True, The Idea Just Came Into My Head**