Questionable Love

It's almost new years, who am i going to kiss?
nobody, again, i'm totally sick of this

i loved you, i honestly did, but where did i go wrong?
i seriously thought, this new relationship, would go on and on

obviously it didn't, since i'm currently single
i'm gonna miss seeing your face, and your brown eyes twinkle

you said you loved me, but i presume that it was a lie?
it's gonna kill me, i'll be dead, if i see you with another guy

i don't even know why i turned to this form of writing
trying to release my mind, i guess, but some emotions are still hiding

do i still love you? i don't know, things have suddenly gotten more complicated
between classes, by our locker, for each other we waited

why? again, i don't know, love makes you do stupid sh*t
you get in too deep but you just can't quit

i'm constantly wishing that this was all a dream
hoping i could just wake up, normal again all things would be

but i gotta face the music because this is real life
so many obstacles, everyday a new strife

laying in bed all night, listening to break up music
that pink purse i got you, i hope that you use it

these past couple months, you didn't get me anything
not that i wanted a gift, but you could've said a few words of greeting

take last anniversary, for example, you didn't even remember
i tested you, yup, you didn't know it was the 19th of november

it's real messed up, the type of girlfriend you were
but for some reason, i sort of fell in love, i told my friends you were "her"

that special girl in my life, that every guy in the world is lookin for
remember those nights, i suprised you right at your front door?

good times.. it'll be a while before i can let go
just leave me alone for a while, as i sit in the dark, being top notch emo...