I hurt myself by hurting you

It starts with...
i go to school, hang out with my friends
fake another smile, it's so fun to play pretend
i act so stupid, i try to act happy
i make some jokes, and act like I'm funny
i see you across the room, flirting with a girl
i know who she is, she's the girl who rocks your world
inside my body, my soul clenching
but i try to relax, still inside I'm dying
you go to lunch eating with your girl
i see you both together, it makes me want to hurl
you hang out with your friends, who used to be mine
who used to hate you, but now all of you are fine
this is just some stupid game, give it up
you know i always win, so just surrender and stop
so i go home and go to the computer
all the time, it makes me feel better
i go to the website, go to myspace.com
go to your profile and trash it, acting so dumb
it's my pay back time and i write about stuff
stuff about you and her, about who you love
'cause i know that your brothers doesn't know her
especially that now she's your girl
they didn't even have a slightest clue about me
except call me names like "leisa lazy"
so i write she's anorexic, like last time she puked
i bet you were disgusted, i can imagine how she looked
and i bet when she wears skirts when it's negative degrees
you check her out, while your jacking off increase
i know I'm mean, it's just a revenge
just like what you did to me and my life you avenged
so now, it's just my time, everything i do i do it for you
especially that i hurt myself by hurting you