Deceiving Myself

You're deceived by my personality
Blinded by my fake smile
I'm always the good person people trust
Sometimes i wish they'd go away

I have problems of my own
I'm not the person I'd like to be
But others always seem so fond of thee
If I could I'd change

Others say what they like about me
I can never agree
What do they see that i can not ?
My mind swims questions

Behind my eyes there is a lost girl
but people could never tell
I always seem to manipulate others and never know.I don't want them to see the other side of me

I'll stand tall, but really I could fall any second. Fall to the ground and let others see the other side of me.
I won't let it happen i will not visit that vulnerability, nor will i show myself the true me.