For u....

Like another lost game of freecell
the frustration is shattering
and its only the addiction which tempts me to try again
perhaps its too bad of an idea

u, u were my cover not \'the one\' or all i\'d ever need
u were simply a reason for him to get his hands off me
but now u deny me that
with ur arrogance and stony glares
i\'ll never be good enough,
for any one that is

i cant even be good enough for some one who has no one to compare
i must be worse than everything he never had
maybe i should give up now,
but i dont want to be alone
the dilemna is the one i yearn for i cant have
because last time i did it ended in nothing better than tears

with him pretending nothing ever happened
and me crying on the bathroom floor