Tears falling. choking on my sorrow. in a dark corner scared of the world. You don\'t care. all you care about is looking down on me from that pedastool you\'ve put yourself upon. Looking down on me like i\'m a dissapointment to you. I\'ve tried and tired again to be good enough for you, but in the end..it was worthless...i\'m not good enough. I have so many imperfections but I thought that for once you\'d be different and realize everyone has imperfections, not everyone\'s perfect ya know? I know you wish I was, but i\'m not her and I won\'t ever be. I\'m only going to be...and that there should be good enough for you. But it isn\'t, I can see that now. You judge me and think you can change me? That won\'t happen, you need to get OFF that damned pedastool and see who I really am. This is me. STOP trying to change me, okay? Because all of that pushing and shoving and pulling and trying to change me...is only pushing me further away. I thought you were real not like those other \"jerks\" you told me I deserved better than....truth is you\'re only a different style of jerk i hadn\'t realized existed. You\'re the nice guy jerk...and i\'m done. So before you start getting on my case and telling me all that is wrong with me and what i do say write feel think believe....climb off that pedastool and look around you. Nobody is perfect...not even HER.
