You don't know it
But my heart aches
I long to push past the mist
Is this a naive trance?
I wish there was a long list
For jealousy to corrupt from the other side
I'm so tired of this ride
I love to think of your words
Everything, reheard
Analysing every moment
Dreaming, never really sleeping
Because you're always there
So special I couldn't touch you
Nobody, nobody understands how I feel like this
Not even you
Am I fake?
Why can't I forget?
Time passes, we grow
And all I feel is deep shame
And yet these feelings still show
Because we're not the same
You're too good
I'm too lame
And I should
But it would be easier to blame
I stutter and squirm
I'm indifferent
I'll never learn
I shame myself
What about my mental health?
I could throw everything on a plate
But I guess it's all too late
Oh, I want to reach you
So soon
But I'm no good
And I know I should
But I can't forgive you
