Who even cares anymore?

As I sit on my bed,
blood dripping down,
my hands loosen,
the blade is on the ground

Trying to stop it,
my body turns numbs,
more and more blood
how could I be so dumb

With every last strength,
I reach for the pills,
I heard it really does the job,
I heard it really kills

The blade is too dull,
the pills are to slow,
I'm sorry for the air I wasted,
I guess they'll never know

I'm just another messed up kid,
with a messed up mother and father,
I just want to end this life,
I don't want to bother