Hard to Write

Hard to write and hard to talk
Once you're happy and lose it
Nothing will be the same
Happiness was taken away from me many times
My soul remembers and remembers
That was the last time happiness was taken away
I feel like I've been knocked out of light
I feel fear of being knocked out again
Why be happy if I'll end up the same again
I'll be knocked out every time i am happy
All i see is hate, screaming, and crying nothing else i see nothing happy I see in my memories