Why do i keep going back?

All the lies
its the same old pattern
i knew she was there

i push away
i want you gone
this game is just a dare

i need my space
i cannot breathe
you've infected all my air

my heart cannot be broken
its shattered; almost gone
but do you really even care?

i want out
im finished
this just isn't fair

i say all this
and mean it...

but for some unknown reason
i keep coming back
i guess the truth of leaving is just too much to bare.