I met up with him today,
the first time in weeks...
everything was going great,
until he started tickling me...
then all of a sudden he kissed me,
n i kissed him right back...
i couldn't stop looking into his eyes,
but i kept looking away,
i cant have these feelings i have for him...
he has a gf,
and he loves her so much...
but yet he misses me so much,
he cant have the best of both worlds,
he cant have me at 17 years of age,
and her at 37 years of age,
when he is just 28 years of age...
he has to make his mind up,
he has to do something,
i cant keep thinking that he just needs time to think,
cause in my heart i know he loves her and not me...
but yet, he still makes me feel so special,
makes me feel like someone i have never fealty before,
we can sit in silence and still it would feel like heaven...
I left, i walked out the door,
but before i could say good-bye,
he was kissing me,
taking my breath away...
it fealty so great,
but at the back of my mind,
what about if she finds out??
what will happen to me??
I don't want our friendship to change,
or anything else,
i really wish it could change but i know that Ur feelings for her,
are not the same to the feelings u have for me...
why is it that the thing you want most,
you cant have??
if i could have anything it would be to be with you...
but the second best thing would be to have u just as a friend...
