MY MERCILESS CYCLE

by Boogie   Dec 21, 2006


Guys, why do we always need to have one?
And why is it that whenever one relationship is done
We always have to go out looking for a new one?
Why do we feel so lonely when theres no one to call us "hun"?
To be honest, I probably shared a relationship with around 500 guys
Most were just on the phone for entertainment, never even saw their eyes
However, I did date around 15 of my boyfriends
Each one followed by a more miserable end
Yet I didnt really care that all my relationships failed
I just somehow started to believe that I was cursed
Cursed to never find a pure heart where I belong
A heart that can forever cherish me, a heart so strong
It all started when I lost my first true love
For he was cheating on me, it hurt so bad I felt like I wasnt enough
I tried getting over him for 5 months, yet I terribly failed
So I foolishly thought that maybe it would help if I played
I used to lie on guys and tell them that theyre the only one I love
Just to keep myself busy and forget my only true lost love
Years have passed since that day
And I never really felt the same way
I never really cared for any guy that much
I never really loved any guy that much
I never really had hope in any guy that much
I never really longed for any guy that much
Until this very year, when I once again found true love
Love that made me believe my first was just a crush and not love
Love so strong, love so pure
It was true love that I know for sure
However, due to my past relationship breakdowns
I somehow believed that this one will also end with a frown
A lonely frown and tears that could cause me to once again drown
So I made the best of it and helped it go down
I was cheated on before, cheated on so many times
That I no longer believed it was a crime
I somehow believed that its okay to cheat sometimes
And now thanks to that stupid belief I lost a loved one again
What the hell is wrong with my brain?
Why the hell am I being influenced in this way?
Why do I have to do something that once killed me like a prey?
So beware everyone, for once again the merciless cycle goes on
Im back to play around with you, and then be gone

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  • 17 years ago

    by Boogie

    Lool!!! thaaanx honey ! damn i missed ya!!! tc and dont be gone for loong !

    :D

  • 17 years ago

    by LovinMyLife

    So frickin true god you are so right. damn. Anyway...thank you so much for commenting. It means so much to me! I\'ll talk to you later okay Boogie woogie...lol idk what that was...*random* but that\'s me! lol buh-bye! lots of love!
    Burning~Wings

  • 17 years ago

    by Boogie

    Thaaanx olivia !! well.. yeah.. i do write exactly how i feel =p

  • 17 years ago

    by Olivia

    5/5! This one is so freakin true! You have talent and I like how straightforward you are in your writng.

    GOOD JOB!

  • 17 years ago

    by Boogie

    LOOOL!! yeah hun bun!!! me too !!! you just get ur pretty ass back here ! =p