I run

Why do I run away from all my struggles?
Why can I not just stand up and fight?
But no, when the challenge rises, all hope falls
And I shiver like a coward, at what I have become
I'm like a helpless victim, trapped in despair
Lost inside this pain, and left all alone
Is life so bad that I cannot change?
Rather to go away, is easier to admit that I'm misplaced
For this terror inside me, locks my pain here
Memories come back and forth, secrets resurrect
All my life's evils are brought forward to me
Yet, I stand and deny and with fear run back
What should I do, can I simply just let go?
So I can never push forward and ensure my fate
Or should I fight back this wickedness
And rise from the depths of what I've become
All these thoughts move around me
Everywhere I look, these troubles find me
So, again, I stand and find no way out
I run, I run, I run

Road after road, pathway after pathway
The misery continues and the destination remains the same
And no matter where I turn
The darkness of my past comes back to me
A common thief that remains hidden inside me
An empty waste, exposed for the world to see
Ragged and broken, brittle and helpless do I remain
Pitiless befallen and an object of grace
And so run away, I cannot
Hide from the past, I cannot
In the darkness I shall remain
Left alone, battered and beaten to the end
Accepting my fate and sinking back to the depths within
I am lost, strangled, forfeiting a sense of knowing
To weak to pass on the challenge and forever slave to my sin
Leaving myself alone, to feed my own gaping wound
And beating myself into a tunnel of submission
And yet, still I get up and run away
Still I cannot stay and lie fallen or ready to fight
I run, I run, I run

Why do I run away from all my struggles?
Why can I not just stand up and fight?
But no, I accept my fallen state of grace
And then run away from my fear
I run, I run, I run