I committed a crime - a crime of rage.
Just at a time I was coming of age.
Wanderlust has been mislaid.
As I sit here transparent and decayed.
Rocking and rolling.
Behind the cage.
What I did just doesn't bear thinking.
It would never have happened, If I hadn't been drinking.
Will I ride the lightning one day?
Defy those who made me old and stale.
I remain in silence,
Behind the cage.
Redeem myself I cannot do.
Every night my mind stumbles through
A dark shadow lives forever here.
Bloated and simmering year after year.
A life for a life - no shade of grey?
Between heaven and hell is where I lay.
Deep scars asleep on my arm.
Tears from the past deny me calm.
I shackle my guilt with muted cries.
Silence is something I always despised.
I was happy once, though I hardly remember.
I can smell your perfume as I held you so tender.
That sea breeze spraying one early May.
Summer sun shining, I knew winter would come one day.
Years now I've stayed behind these walls.
I think sometimes I hear your call.
You cry for me 'cause I'm wasted.
You cry for me 'cause you got something I never tasted.
In dreams, as a child, I stood so tall.
Never knowing how badly I'd fall.
