Loss of Sleep (But Why?)

These days have been so very strange
I'm not sure what to think
It seems every time its clear
It vanishes in a blink

All the pieces are on the table
But they make no sense to me
Every time I think I know
It becomes a greater mystery

It messes with my head
It stabs at my heart
I'm so confused on everything
I'm being torn apart

Things were going just fine I thought
But apparently I was wrong
I thought I reached my destination
But I see the road is much more long

My head has been so cluttered
That for a while I couldn't write
I could barely eat, I couldn't think
I've barely slept each night

The worst part is I don't even know
Why my mind is drifting
I don't understand what's plaguing me
I just know its not uplifting

Perhaps it's a mere sign
Of something that's on its way
Should I be preparing for it?
Or just keep living day to day?

Perhaps it's really nothing
I'm just thinking far too deep
All I really know
Is that it refuses to let me sleep.

*sorry it's been a while since I posted, my mind has been really clouded and I was having serious writer's block.