I was told

I was told that if i was strong
and was able to keep it together
That i would find true happiness
and stick with it forever

Its been quite sometime now
while in my bed i lay
Where right in front of my eyes
i was forced to watch it all fade away

I tried so hard to be strong
but my body is slowly growing weak
I bite my tongue to hide the truth
because my feelings don't wanna speak

I was told if i did right
my shattered heart would heal
Who are you to say that
when my feelings you don't feel?

I can barely feel them
the pain nd hate have left me numb
I blame everyone else
for the worthless piece of sh!t i have become

I never blame myself
for the guilt would rot inside my head
It would eat away at my insides
like the bugs will when I'm dead

i was told id see the sun
if i made it through the rain
But the rain is never ending
because it represents my pain

I was told if i got on track
my eyes would finally see clear
I got strong enough to change
myself and still theres no one here