I love him so much :(

I dont understand
how can you do this to me
I love you so much
but yet you dont love me??
How can this be
I cry n cry
but that dont seem to help
Do you really want me to start cutting or somthing
or mabe taking pills
over dose
thats just what i need huh
I just cant do it anymore
I just cant
i put on a fake smile every day
and inside its killing me!!
it just hurts so bad
and you holding her is not making anything better
you said you would love me forever
but your forever must be different then mine
SO what should i do
just go off and kill myself
maybe that would make everything better