Mommy I saw

I must have been ugly, I must have been bad
What else would have made my mom so mad?
Mommy didn't care, mommy just wanted money
and a beautiful honey.
Someone to care, someone to share.
A dad, a husband, that just wasn't there.
Mommy left one night, to go buy some crack
She came back late at night, and just went wack.
Mommy stabbed me once, and hit me twice
Mommy said I was mean, and wasn't nice.
She said it was my fault, that we were poor
and then that was it, I fell to the floor.
From heaven heard mommy crying, and holding me
and then she could finally see. She got scared and started to drag me
from heaven I watched Mommy throw me in the lake
from that moment on, I knew I was mommy's big mistake.