Forever alone

Confidence so low...
Each and every blow
Want you to tell me Im beautiful
From my face to my soul

Scared to express
What if you feel less?
Been hurt so much before
Now defense is in my core

Its hard to completely trust
When a factor is lust
Cant last another loss
Thats a line I just cant cross

Im strong...but maybe not strong enough
A mess inside but outside appear tough
This depression keeps coming back
It takes one little thing and Im once again under attack

I thought you were supposed to stop it
Not cause this shit
Why am I always alone
Is my whole life forever blown?