Christmas eve,
everything so outta place.
Things change so fast,
sometimes its like before it wasn’t even real.
No one’s in the kitchen cooking.
Lights don’t glare off windows.
No ones laughing or looking at me strange.
The house is deadly silent.
Tonight we’re going to friends
instead of the nursing home as every year before.
Yet that’s where I want to go.
Where my heart belongs.
And tomorrow Christmas.
Moms having supper.
We’ll get up early as we usually do.
Cole will wake me up at 6 as every year before
We’ll open little presents wait for mom and dad to get up and open the rest.
No more going to the farm though
Oh no to the graveyard we’ll take the trip instead.
I won’t sign on msn.
Because I wwasntt want to hear what everyone else Christmas is like.
For the snows not falling
and your not here to celebrate with me.
My phone will go off.
But tonight I don’t feel like answering it.
So it will ring and leave me Merry Christmas messages.
I’ll watch as it brings them in one by one.
Christmas songs wont ring threw the house.
All the cd’s were lost long befobefore.
Family will pile in.
And I won’t run to greet them.
Who cares anymore.
All me and Kelvin do is fight,
His wife just wines
and his kid well she’s just to in my face.
Why do I want to see them?
My big brothers not around
no Christmas wishes from him.
Oh yes I realize he’s got other family now.
Merry Christmas.
Nothing seems right.
I just really miss you tonight.
Merry Christmas Uncle Oliver,
I’ll try to be strong.
It’s just so strange being here without you
