Merry Christmas Gran

Merry Christmas to you Gran

even though you are not here,
its still kind of the same,
till tomorrow... Boxing day..
that is when we all get together,
I don't think anyone has remembered,
I think its just I...

It doesn't feel like Christmas,
at least not without you here...
I wish you could be here,
But you left you faded away...

Not one sound was there,
Only tears of sorrow and tears of sadness....
If i were to take but that day i would,
Knowing you would still be here today...

A time of happiness,
A time of joy,
its No longer that,
well not for me...

I bet tomorrow everyone will just forget,
forget your voice, forget that you were here,
and then i will be the one,
the one left with the tear...

Tears: sometimes a sign of happiness,
and others a sign of emptiness...
if there was something i could do to make things better I would,
But not everyones sees things the way i do...

I want everything to be the it used to be...
Christmas: A time for loved one far and near to join as one,
On the a special that is happy for all,
Adults,Children, Pets.... Everyone...

But mine wont be like that,
mine wont be special nor magical,
just a day of sorrow,
a day of sadness and theres nothing i can do...

Just put on a face,
be happy, smile, laugh...
And just pretend that,
Every things ok..
Pretend it's the way its meant to be...