If you only knew
How much I tried to get to you
How I didn't ever play any mind games with you
How I only spoke the truth
How I never lied or cheated on you
How many girls I deaded just to be with you
How I gave you all I had
How spent my food money on you
How I told everyone that I was with you
If you only knew
How many people I showed your picture to
How many people I admitted I love you in front of
How many times I snuck to spend time with you
How much I got in trouble because I wanted to keep you happy
If you only knew
How sick I am without you
How I cry every night
How I can't listen to our songs without my eyes getting glossy
How I can't get you off my mind
How much I'm willing to give for you
If you only knew
How much it hurts when you talk about other guys
How embarrassed I was when you laughed at my picture
How happy I was to see your picture on my wallpaper
How sad I was when you told me you spoke to your ex
How mean I felt when I faked to be mean to you
How confused I was when you kept leaving me and coming back
How lost I was when you first told me you love me
If you only knew
How much I feel that you don't even care
How much I would love to show you my poems
How hard it is to show you a poem like this
How much I really mean everything I say
If you only knew
How sore my throat feels this very instant
How dry my lips feel this very second
How much I wish you would read all this shit
How much I cried as I wrote this
