Have you ever...?

I carry this hate behind my smile and cringe like theres no tomorrow.

I hate myself for feeling that way, but what can i do besides sorrow?

I talk down to myself when i feel left out and reminisce about my past.

I sit around and wonder how long my fake grin and pain will last.

I don't want to feel like hiding is the answer or running from the problem.

But it seems to be the key is counseling, however none of the above can solve them.